how to win the lottery s2e1 – the bell jar by sylvia plath
“i wondered what terrible thing it was that i had done.”
“i wondered what terrible thing it was that i had done.”
“i was thinking maybe the reason you used to get like that was because at some level you always knew.”
i have to be responsible for the world, and none of them knows what that feels like. if i don’t organize things just right, you see, everything will be destroyed. you understand? i’m not saying i’m god, but i know what it feels like to carry the world.
the fact that sometimes I think that people today must be the saddest people ever, because we know we ruined everything,
many times i have asked myself what i could’ve done to protect myself that night. i asked myself if i had deserved this. i convinced myself that i did, and it wasn’t hard to.